Sweet Charity~

Last night was a happy night. Was supposed to go for the Gummiberry cocktail (Loof’s signature dish in Sweet Charity, a program where the participating outlets will donate $5 for each signature dish ordered) with Cheng Xuan and Sammie, but Cheng Xuan ended up bringing a friend, Nat. Which was just as well, because the previous night Sammie told me to celebrate Cheng Xuan’s birthday, which is on the coming Wednesday. =D I love preparing for birthdays =D

So when duty ended at Scalebar at 4.30pm, I went down to Chinatown’s Ann Siang Street to visit that Japanese cake shop I so wanted to go called K-Ki. Their cakes were so nice. And turned out Oakham Market was really just below K-Ki, but I didn’t go in to browse seeing my budget for the month is low and I don’t really have time anyway (the cakes might melt!). Left the cakes with Loof, with instructions to the staff. Got one of the staff, Karen, to be in-charge, and she even helped me write on a card that says “Loof is psychic! We know when is your birthday…” to be placed on top of the box of the cake. But they ruined the surprise afterwards anyway by asking “so who’s birthday is it?” So yea. HAHA.

So anyway, went down to Kichn to meet them for dinner. But since I’ve never met Nat, I didn’t recognise him when he was actually already there at one of the empty tables XD I sat at another empty table wondering why he’s sitting there alone. Sammie came and we were discussing Cheng Xuan’s birthday aloud! Luckily Nat didn’t hear a thing haha.

And they were damn suay. First time Cheng Xuan and Nat were eating Kichn but everything ran out. For drinks, all the chocolaty stuff are out coz they ran out of Vanilla, and then for mains they ran out of dory, chicken roll and chop, which reduced the choice of main to only two – luncheon or meat patty for cheng xuan. And most ridiculously, for the carbo, there was only homecooked noodles left (I got my japanese rice in cream sauce because I reserved it haha). Oh, not to mention the staff forgot Cheng Xuan’s order and left the patty there for so long that it’s uneatable. We cancelled the order too because we don’t have time anymore. Such a bad impression Kichn made on them. Sigh. Nothing I say will convince them it’s good now.

We skipped the Cocotte’s Basque cake though since we were running out of time and my reservation at Loof was for 10. So we went straight to Loof and managed to surprise Cheng Xuan successfully =DDDD HAHA Feeling so accomplished. Okay, I’m too easily happy le.

So anyway, onto the Gummiberry. I don’t like the drink. The drink itself is okay lah, but why do you want to spoil the drink with the thick sweet thing on top….meringue…Don’t even know what’s that. The drink itself has a rather mild and sweet taste. Which is alright, but would be better without the cherry seeds I think? Anyway, all in all not my kind of drink. Tried to find something that’s made of rum afterwards to satisfy the inner-alcoholic in me, and ordered The Loof Life, but only to find that it’s ice-blended =( Oh well.

But all in all last night was so fun. Haven’t been able to let myself go and have fun like that in such a long time. =P I think this relationship with kinwai really helped me learn a lot, and gave me a chance to rediscover myself. This really feels great. Not sure how to explain it. I hope I’ll remember this feeling for life man haha.

Can’t wait for ning to come back. Sammie was saying if we recruit new members like that (like Nat) and start going out in bigger and more random groups, ning will have many instant friends when she comes back! Imagine how it’d be like if we get all the “new members” to go welcome her at the airport XDDDDDD A whole row of strange new friends~~~~ LOL.

And boo, I forgot to take photos the whole night for Ning. At Loof I tried, but it was too dark. My handphone is chui. =X

OH AND IN OTHER NEWS, cheryl is sponsoring me for a make up course for me to accompany her and as a late birthday present. HAPPY =DDDD I just hope I’m free that day. haven’t check =X

Dinner at Ramen Champion

So I was having a busy day at Scalebar (two years having submission on the same day today) and Fel smsed to say that Leslie’s jio-ing JSS people to go down for dinner at Ramen Champion at Illuma. I went there just once with Kinwai and thought that would be nice. Since, I had no plans tonight, and I really wanted many many things in my life to distract me.

I said I’m going thinking Fel’s going too though. But turned out she wasn’t going but at least Rindy went. It’s just, I don’t usually hang out with this group of people so I wasn’t sure I’d be comfortable. But I was kinda desperate for “activity” so I went anyway.

It turned out really fun. I had Tsukemen which turned out to be really nice. In contrast to ramen, Tsukemen remains chewy throughout since the noodles are not soaked all the way. But still, the broth was really thick and rich, so I couldn’t finish everything. But it was nice.

Rindy was craving for Swensens, and both Kurt and me agreed that the standards of Swensens icecream isn’t high at all. So the topic shifted to Marble Slab, which was right outside, and later on to Cold Stone. I couldn’t remember the name at that time actually, but the consensus was to walk to Cold Stone to aid digestion. I shared icecream with Leslie so that I won’t feel so sinful, but I think I ended up eating more than I was planning to anyway. After walking about for awhile, we drank fruit juices (aligned to our conversation topic on how to keep fit/slim/toned). Leslie and Jing Fang were like promoting beetroot to me, but after tasting two drinks, I still don’t know how beetroot taste like. The guy at the counter actually took out their sliced beetroot for me coz I didn’t know what it looks like XD I bought ABC+OL (which stands for beetroot+carrot+orange and lime. I can’t remember what A stood for). It tasted nice I think, so I don’t mind drinking that next time =) We went to cold storage to look at what beetroot looks like too lol.

To be honest, it took me awhile to get into the mood to write out what happened today to make me feel better. Because today really was fun. Along the way home, I can’t stop thinking of my “impending doom” though. Maybe, I can live life normally without him. But I’ll just feel like I’m missing a part of me for the rest of my life that’s all. No one will believe me, everyone thinks I’m just saying that and it’ll pass. But only Sammie understands how this time it’s different, and it has set a standard. The likelihood of me finding the same feeling back with someone else is so slim that…if the doom’s really approaching, I’ll have to get used to it.

I started thinking how and why am I so nice to my boyfriend(s) that that’s probably why everyone started taking me for granted sooner or later. Is it really that wrong to want to pamper your boyfriend more? So if I take care of myself more maybe the guys would have taken me for granted less? Maybe that would have made me more attractive. Not going to their rescue, or going all the way to his house with bubble tea to cheer him up. Demanding that he’s the one who comes to my house with bubble tea maybe? Not care so much about whether he’s stressed and everything, and then try to help him with everything he has? Actually be angry if he has an opinion on what you do, instead of trying to change everything in your lifestyle to suit him? This is fucked up.

I played Jubeat today, while waiting for everyone (who was late) to come to Bugis. I think I stopped playing because he mentioned that he doesn’t like people who play arcade games regularly because it’s a waste of money.

When I was smsing twitter just now, and I looked at the omamori hanging on my handphone, and thought about how he used to be so upset and angry when I thought I lost mine. While his isn’t even with him all the time now. Sure, his new handphone can’t dangle things, but I would have found a way to dangle it if I were him.

It’s just like everything else. He can take things easy, I can’t Even when he still liked me. I relent to every preference and requests he has. Find ways to make him happy. Keep him happy.

Like trying to get everyone to pool money for a handphone for him when he started ranting about his handphone everyday.
I go to extremes for him. I’m probably appreciated alright, but only superficially. But these significances just die off over time. No one remembers them.

I feel like I sound so bitter. I am. The guy I loved truly, and tried/did so much for, doesn’t love me anymore. And there’s not even a reason for it. Not because he doesn’t want to tell me a reason, but because there really isn’t any.
It’s simply a characteristic of a guy.
I’m simply unlucky.
Over and over again.
I’m so sick of loving someone.

But anyway it’s good he has set a standard. Coz that means I don’t have to go through this again in the future, after he decided to dump me.

Why do I still love him?

Beauty Routines

So I have never applied a single mask in my life (till today), am noob at doing make up, and never bothered with beauty rituals like toner, moisturisers and such. Sammie nagged at me but I never bothered.

Today I went out to get masks. I have one on my face this very moment. Not to mention the shea butter body moisturiser all over my body.

Need to remember to add shaving my legs to my regime tomorrow. I’ll start that tomorrow.

I’m going to start taking care of myself. If I can’t take care of him now, I can at least take care of myself. It also helps me in loving myself I think. I’ll transfer all of my love for him to me for now. We’ll see if I get a chance to balance it back out after exams.

I guess it’s quite obvious from this that I’m not seeing him till after exams huh? At least he still smses me goodnights. That makes this a little more bearable.