Inertia – Resolved

I pressed the damn button.

Actually, I pressed it only because Mark told me that upon pressing the button, you still need to press a confirm button. And therefore it’s not the final hurdle. Knowing that it’s not the final hurdle, it became easier to press it. But since I pressed it, it didn’t feel so overwhelming anymore, and I pressed the confirm button too.

So it is a case of inertia after all haha.

Inertia of the Finger

I stared at the page in my firefox browser, disregarding my other tabs. It said “Joint Acceptance” in bright blue on the top left hand corner, and as if worried that we might be confused on our role in this exercise, it clarified in a smaller red font – “Applicant Module”.

Yea, I know full well that I’m an applicant. That’s the very reason why I’m so troubled by the page.

On the screen, I saw my details being displayed on top of the following words. Crucial words indeed.

Please select the course you wish to accept:

NTU – Economics
NUS – Architecture
Reject all Offers of Admission

Submit

And I continued staring.

Eventually, my brain got tired, I felt a sort of frustration at myself, my heart seemed to be unable to take it anymore. And so I activated the Online Stopwatch tab instead, and opened Fate Stay Night. Every now and then, I went back to the tab though.

And I continued staring.

I forced myself to stop playing Fate Stay Night, aware that my original plan was to attempt to write something. Had a couple of ideas of what I really really want to write about. But I couldn’t stop thinking about the other tab as I look at wordpress. I gave up and went back to that cursed tab.

And I continued staring.

I stared and stared and stared. I disengage, allow other things to occupy my thoughts – mousehunt, word challenge, numerous things. But each time I go back to the stupid retarded staring contest. Dammit, the mouse pointer is even over the submit button. Just press it already.

I’m so damn frustrated with myself. I can’t even do what I wanted to do tonight. Guess I need to get that out of the way first.

ARGH MEIYI, JUST DO IT ALREADY.
press that darn button, get into archi, make your dream come true. why the hell is it so darn difficult?